Recently I have got some opposition for my faith. It comes in public realms, as well as in private conversations. After some of these instances it made me sit down and think about what I am doing. Why am I serving a God that I cant see with my eyes? Why did I die to myself to live for another? Why do I say not my will but yours? Is any of this worth it? All of these questions were narrowed to one major question "Am I wasting my life, the only one I get?" After spending hours thinking about it, the answer is simple... No.
I will approach how I came to this answer from several angles. The first is that as a Christian I am a better person. I am a better husband, friend, brother, and son because of my faith. It is obvious when you look at the history of my life. Before I was a Christian, I had many failed relationships with friends. I fought with siblings, and parents all the time. After becoming a Christian I am seeing people through a new lens. I try to love people even amidst their (sometimes long) list of flaws. Don't get me wrong, I still grow impatient with my family and friends, but I still approach how I feel about people much differently. I am today a greater person because of Christ.
Another thing to consider is where I would be if I wasn't a Christian. A friend of my asked me that exact question one time. I responded with "powerful for the kingdom of Hell." If I am honest with you that is where I would be. Before I was a Christian I was longing to do something with my life. To have a sense of purpose, to change the world. I think if presented with the option of changing the world for the worse, I would still be on board. So it is worth it to me to be a Christian just to take myself away from being used for the furtherance of evil.
What about all the things that you can't do? What about all the things that you have had to sacrifice? These are all questions that I have been asked and thought about thoroughly. Needless to say as a Christian there are many things, (especially considering that I am in college) that I have had to sacrifice. But if I am honest, anything that I think through I don't miss. I mean think of Pre-marital sex. All it takes is watching one episode of "Teen Mom" to make me realize that sacrificing having sex before marriage is one of the wisest decisions I ever made. Along the same lines there are things like pornography or being sexually immoral. But if you set aside your feelings about this for a second think about how much pain is associated with pornography or prostitution, even one night stands. The hurt, the regret, the sadness, the shame. Next time you thing about participating in these acts just remember that someday that might be your daughter, or your sister. Our culture may lie to us that these things are 'manly' but I for one feel more like a man every time I say no to these things. Because there is nothing manly about not protecting women. It isn't just sexual acts that are sacrificed. The life of partying, drinking, and drugs are all given up as well. It ought to be easy to understand why I willingly give these things up. Why would I want to do something to my body in which I am inhibited from thinking clearly or acting maturely. We are told we are 'cooler' the more we party or drink, but honestly, I think we just look 'sillier.'
Something that seems to always keep people from following Jesus is the 'rulebook.' There seems to be this widespread lie that being a Christian is all about following rules, being controlled. A real 'obey or die' sort of illusion. If The bible tells us that there is not even condemnation for [breaking the rules] when you are saved by Jesus. Never in my life when I have sinned, have I had to sit down with a pastor or religious leader and be lectured about what a bad person I am. I don't live my life thinking to myself daily about all the rules I must follow. Yes I do sin, I do screw up, and each time I hand these things to Jesus, and say, "thank you for becoming this thing. Thank you for saving me, thank you for bearing my burden." Being a Christian isn't about following the law and being controlled but some authority. Its honestly only about this crazy, insane, love relationship between me and Jesus, and me following this awesome person anywhere he leads me.
The last argument specifically goes out to anyone that is walking this narrow path with me. Any one that is part of this great family of Christ, please read these next few sentences thoroughly. Let me start by saying that my life isn't boring. It is certainly packed with more stuff, but it is Fun, it is Exciting, it is Awesome. My life has been so much better ever since I became a Christian. My life feels like it has purpose. I am not just trying to stockpile as much money as possible, or become as powerful as possible. I am trying to share my treasure with as many people as possible. Every day that someone I know comes closer to knowing Jesus one of the most exciting moments of my life. Sure being a Christian can be overwhelming sometimes. There is still pain, hurt, suffering, and burn out. But it's worth it. It's worth it just to be 'alive.' Just to taste what changing the world feels like. Just to know that I am living daily for one who creates galaxies! It is awesome.
So the answer is that it is not a waste. If I wasn't a Christian I would bored, distracted, annoying, empty, lost, frustrated, confused, angry, hurtful, and spent or wasted. However as a Christian I am; renewed, healed, excited, loving, happy, encouraged, and Alive!
So the long and short of it is that following Jesus is great. It is very hard sometimes, and this path is cleverly called the narrow one. But it is so worth it. It is so great. It is not a waste, and I am sure that 100 out of 100 times if I were to relive my life I would choose to change the world. I would choose to live life to the fullest! I would choose to follow Jesus! I know you would too!
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